So long 34th street, I was born for more than one miracle.

I am dressed in a sequined black mini skirt and red pumps amidst a crowd of young people mercilessly hitting on one another and I am thinking about Mother Teresa’s feet.

I am being approached by guys who are attempting to “pick me up” and buy me drinks. I am being ushered into conversations over where I went to school and what is next upon graduation. And I cannot even focus on the eyes of my suitors because I have the image of her feet in my head.

Trust me, it was never my intention to spend a night at the bar thinking about the feet of a late saint.

But they were deformed. Very few people know that her feet were terribly mangled and it was not a birth defect. She instigated her own deformity. Shipments of shoes would make their way into Calcutta and she would be the first to go through them. She would search and scavenge quite diligently until she uncovered the perfect pair of shoes. The pair she chose was always the worst of the bunch. An Ill Fitting Pair. But she chose these shoes first so that no one else would have to. She wore shoes all her life that did not Fit Her or Support Her so that someone else could walk around more comfortably.

I have figured out what I want to be when I grow up. And it is Abstract and Wild and Open Ended but it Fits Me Just Fine. A Miracle. I want to be someone’s miracle, or a miracle to a bunch of people. I want to have walked into this world with such an intense manner and vibrant love for the juices of this lifetime that someone else is left changed because of it. And I don’t need a $70,000 salary to be a miracle. Or a top-notch resume. Or superior references. I simply need to wake up, Smile Big, and Shift My Focus away from myself and onto Others.

Could our life’s purpose exist in somebody else? I sincerely believe that some of us were born to make another happy. Some were born to bring the next great leader into this world. Others were born so that someone else could way up every single morning feeling as though they had made a difference. Whatever the reason, many still unknown, we were each born to play an intricate role that only we can take on. We each have a brilliant purpose that only we can embody and to me that is very much a reason not to fool around with or waste this lifetime. Life is not in the nine to five grind or the six figure salaries. Life is in the way We Walk, Talk, Dance, Speak and Live. And what others can take away from it.

I spend my time these days attempting to explain to other people what exactly it is that I am doing next year. I am moving to New York and I will be the liaison to the Augustinians at the United Nations. “So you must be getting paid well?” No, I don’t make a salary just a small stipend. There, my friends, is the perplexity. Either people automatically assume that I am some saint for valiantly giving up a year’s worth of money or they are baffled and confused that I would even let just an idea harvest in my head. But to me it was never even a second guess. I knew all along that the after I graduated from my four-year college that I was going to need to give back. And though I am no longer journeying to Haiti for the year, I believe it because I am going where I need to be. Where my skills to write and my fierce passion about global issues of poverty, education and human rights will finally meet a match.

I wake up every single morning and think (and I kid you not), “How can someone tell me that I was not born for great things?” I have the awesome potential to walk out the door today and change the course of someone else’s life completely. I really could. We all could. And how can we just take that for granted? When There Are Miracles To Be Had and Dreams To Make Come True.

Maybe we are all strung together. We are all holding pieces of brightly colored yarns in our hands but the purpose is to the follow the strands and see where we are led. Back to one another. Into the arms of a lover. Over the ocean to impoverished lands. We need to follow our yarns instead of holding them so tightly that we lose the game. That we stayed so invested in ourselves that someone else had to let go of the yarn because the pull was too tight. And they lost faith that a miracle existed.

Miracles. They exist everywhere. They are not just quarantined to 34th street in NYC or to hospital rooms and countries without clean water. Miracles are walking around waiting everywhere, waiting to be recognized and seduced into existence.We can grow up to be one. We can grow up and experience one. Or we can grow up choosing not to believe in them…

And I am not going to poke you, prod you or pressure you into believing in them if you don’t want to. But me? Me? All that I ask is that you don’t try to sway me or discourage me because one day I plan to be a miracle. One day. I will be.

45 thoughts on “So long 34th street, I was born for more than one miracle.

  1. This is going to be such an amazing experience for you! One of my good high school friends worked with the UN as a legal consultant last year (on the same kind of agreement) and it was an incredible experience for her. You will meet so many wonderful people and get so many networking opportunities, never mind the real help you’ll be providing…

    Ah! I’m so happy for you. And please let the rest of us think saintly thoughts of you. I bet we’re pretty close to the truth 🙂

    1. Ha ha, jeepers, saintly thoughts of me are probably not as close to the truth as I would like.

      But thank you so much, I am ecstatic to be going and getting this experience. I have dreamed of being at the UN for so long that I cannot believe this opportunity dropped into my lap like this. Don’t worry the updates will keep coming, and thanks so much for the 20sb vote love!


      Hannah Katy

  2. You have such a way with words, I’m insanely jealous.

    I think this is something each of us should constantly strive for, even if it’s just to one person during our entire lifetime. We should want to be a shining light in others’ lives. I know so many people, myself included, who let petty circumstances in life weigh them down and it just makes their whole countenance turn ugly and haggard. I don’t want that for myself.

    I love this line: “We each have a brilliant purpose that only we can embody and to me that is very much a reason not to fool around with or waste this lifetime.”

    I feel like that’s all I have been doing these past few months and this post makes me want to get up and DO SOMETHING worthwhile. Thanks for the kick. 😉

    1. Always always always happy to doll out the kicks. I look forward to see what you are going to do. It is totally about not letting the little things weigh you down.


      Hannah Katy

  3. I’ve worked for a charity for almost six years–since graduating college. I’ve never had any other “real” job. I will never make $70,000–not even close. But I know that this is what I was meant to do. Not everyone can say that they prevent suffering for a living. I can, and it’s all the reward I need.

  4. I think that it’s important to not devalue the little things in life. Many people look at miracles as something that are awe-inspiring or that you’ll even be able to visibly or consciously see the transformation of another life. You can’t and you won’t. Every interaction you have is an opportunity to do a little something to better someone’s life and maybe you will never know that you performed a miracle.

    But you do it anyway.

    1. So very true Allison, so very true. I like the way you think. I try to keep the same kind of perspective in my daily life. And I think it makes the day a lot more exciting, as if an opportunity is waiting at every corner.


      Hannah Katy

  5. I love this post, so so much. I was in such a bad mood today and I’m pretty sure that I was taking it out on everyone around me when I finally stopped to think about the whole “you get what you give” concept. Be positive and you will receive positivity in return.

    I love the story about Mother Theresa, too. I had no idea.

  6. That will be such an awesome experience for you and I can’t wait to read all the stuff you’ll end up writing for and about it 🙂

    And I’ve always loved Mother Teresa and all that she did in her lifetime. Regardless of a person’s religious background, I think they can learn something from how she lived her life in complete service to others. We can’t all be Mother Teresa and choose to wear uncomfortable shoes or nurse the severely sick or subject ourselves to chastity or promise to live in total poverty but she is such a great role model. If we all strive to do even just a little bit of what she did (like what you’re doing with taking on this job where you get a stipend rather than a salary) well then the world will just be such a better place 🙂

    1. She is a great woman. I am no saint but I totally value the way she lived her life and the little pearls of wisdom she released to the world. Such an eloquent woman. I am actually going to a Mother Teresa exhibition next week with my mother, she raised on the teachings of Mother Teresa so it should be a great experience.

      Thank you, and I am already anticipating the experiences that I will be able to write about through this.


      Hannah Katy

  7. This is such a beautiful post, like a miracle itself. 🙂

    You are such a noble person and I hope you do find success and happiness in whatever you want to do to be a miracle for the world and people 🙂

  8. What you wrote is so true. And I think that we all should find purpose in trying to be a miracle for someone else. Because if we were living to help others, we would be much less caught up in things. And I think that most of us would be much happier!

    1. I think when I started to shift my perspective I noticed myself becoming a lot happier. I realized last year that this world does not revolve around me, that it is not about me at all. And that wake up call really changed my life.


      Hannah Katy

  9. Yet again, a wise post from our resident Hannah. I am sure you have already been a miracle several times, and with your openness to grace, you likely shall be again.

    “Trust me, it was never my intention to spend a night at the bar thinking about the feet of a late saint.”

    When you instinctualize this variety of contemplation, you shall gain another step toward happiness.

    And you seem to have landed yourself that fine job you spoke of earlier. While I do not like the UN, I do like the Augustinians, so good going!

    1. Leslie- Thank you so much for the great input. I was visiting Assumption this past weekend and so I thought of you on many occasions. I hope all is well and I will definitely keep you informed of my whereabouts next year.


      Hannah Katy

  10. Hi Hannah,

    I consider it a miracle that you stopped by my blog one day! Love your writing. Unique and heartfelt.

    Love what you are doing after college. The whole point of college and education in general has been re-interpreted in the last 20 years to mean getting a high paying job so you can buy more stuff. That in turn has made the cost skyrocket since stuff accumulation has become a marker of success.

    One of my friends volunteered after college at Mother Teresa’s Home for the Destitute and Dying.

    I look forward to reading about your UN adventures. The world needs more miracles like you.


    1. You are great Giulietta, your comment just put a huge smile upon my face. I look forward to telling all the adventures on this blog, it is such a blessing to be able to write with such freedom. And I am envious of your friend! I would love to visit that home and to be able to see some of the foundations that Mama T built.

      Thank you for the kind words.


      Hannah Katy

  11. You are a walking miracle. There will be naysayers, but I hope their words fall on deaf ears, because there is something in you that can change this world and its’ inhabitants for the better.

  12. Hannah, this is another incredible post, and I agree with what some other people have said – this should be mandatory reading!! I love your Mother Teresa story, and your huge dream of making this world a better place. I think the world will most definitely be better for having you in it – it needs more people like you. I am so excited to hear what your next chapter brings! 🙂

  13. PS. I was having a conversation with a friend last night, who has a keen interest in human rights, and he was talking about one of his goals being to make a difference for people who are less fortunate than us. I am forwarding this post to him as I think it’s perfectly timed and all sorts of inspiring 🙂

    1. That is so wonderful. I love when people pass my posts along, it such a surreal feeling to think that other people can benefit from words. And I consider you to be a miracle as well, you have shown me so much of your beautiful heart and ways in which I want to mirror that… Spent the weekend with my best friend and we gushed over how great you are!


      Hannah Katy

  14. I think some (like me) would argue that you already are a miracle.

    I can’t wait to hear more about your journey and I do hope you share it with us!

    You’re such an inspiration and I have no doubt that you’re destined for greatness.

    1. Oh don’t you worry, story time all the time! I cannot wait to have new adventures that I can bring to life through my writing. I am just itching for August 23 to come so I can begin!


      Hannah Katy

  15. Stunning – I love what you say about the yarn and how when one person holds it too tightly another is forced to let go. The visual for that is breath taking 🙂

    And you, you are a miracle every day. And you, you were definitely born for great things – and every day you fulfill that ❤

    All my best to you always,

    1. Carolina- your words and comments always mean the world to me, honestly, I always take your sentiments and keep them on my heart. Thank you for always providing me with such poised and eloquent praise.


      Hannah Katy

  16. Wow, I’ve really been away for a long stretch when this is how I found out you’re not going to Haiti anymore…

    I don’t mean to make you blush or anything, but what you’re doing does carry a fair bit of ‘sainthood’ with it. It would hardly be sainthood if you were making a song and dance about doing good, or doing helpful deeds in an overly dramatic way. Miracles aside, what is so remarkable about people such as yourself is that you give without thought for reward or praise. And that is what makes you so awesome, selfless and what sorta makes me want to hug you a little.

    1. You are so great Stephen. And guess you are a little behind ha ha, going to NYC instead of Haiti. But I will get there one day for certain. I don’t think I match up to any kind of sainthood but hey if I can inspire people to do good through me then that is all that really matters. Its that motivational speaker in me ha ha. Great to hear from you, get ready to watch Germany defeat all!


      Hannah Katy

  17. damn sister! we are two peas in a pod. this is a beautiful post. good luck next year! and, thanks for stopping by an american girl in cambodia!!

  18. I just stumbled upon this post on a particularly rough evening, and as I’m about to pull my hair out from the week ahead, this definitely stopped me in my tracks and totally revamped my thinking. Please just write a book so people all over the world can read it. I feel like I say this a lot, but you are changing the world already.

  19. This post. So inspiring. I’m reading through all of your posts that I can because you capture what my heart can’t tell my mouth to say. Keep writing and being that miracle for scores of people. I can’t wait for you to see one day all the people you impacted without even knowing it. 🙂

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