Captured.


The World Needs More Love Letters from Justin Marantz on Vimeo.

I had every intention in the world to publish a different blog post today.

It was typed. It was edited. It was going to be another one of the kind that socks you in the ribs and makes you search the skies for spare oxygen. Because that’s just the kind of poetry that sits in my bones most days.

But I have to be honest & truthful that I’ve been in a funk lately.

I’ve been a little sad. I’ve been questioning a lot of things. And I’ve just wanted to come onto this page and say, “It’s so dang hard to move forwards sometimes when you don’t know what you’re supposed to do next.” That’s the truth in following God’s Dream. You might never know where the next step is but He promises to make it worth it. & it always, always is.

Justin + Mary Marantz, two new friends of mine, contacted me two weeks ago, right before I headed off to St. Louis for a speaking engagement and asked if they could capture my story to share with their audience at WPPI in Las Vegas. I obliged.

I am a fan of their work. I am willing to share in an Always sort of way.

But truthfully, there is always this worry when someone else handles your story. When they take the inner workings of your heart into their own hands and they attempt to capture you. They have the potential to portray you right or wrong to the whole wide world. I was praying for right this time.

The video came out today. I held my breath and clicked “Play.” And slowly, slowly, the tears began streaming down my face. In the middle of a Starbucks, with a mug stained with red lips between my hands, I let the tears from the last few weeks, piled thick upon me, come and drizzle down my skin.

There are words living on my inside. I know there are. They are the words that will push me to write this memoir. They are the words that were there to start this story and they will be there to finish it out. I have to stop doubting them. I have to stop belittling my story… It is one for telling. This video has made me certain, so certain of that.

A good, good artist will capture you just as you are. They will get you in a way that makes you realize that you never truly knew how you wanted people to know your story until you became their muse. That’s how this video feels to me. Like I am speechless. Like I am overcome with gratitude. Like I wish people wouldn’t dig through Google to find and read my story… but that they would simply watch this.

Thank you Justin + Mary. You captured me. You really did.

34 thoughts on “Captured.

  1. You have captured yourself also when you said you are a marvel and so are all the parts of you. I want to share a bit of my blog with you.
    “I am not broken!” this new growth is shouting. “This is the shape of me and it was never wrong and I was always free.”

  2. This video moved me in so many ways. Thank you for sharing it… and thank you even more for the profoundly beautiful work you do

  3. Hannah, a true portrait of you and your gigantic heart. To be in a funk is to be human and the deeper you feel, the deeper the funk can be. I’ve mentioned this to you before, the twenties are a tough decade. I felt so very lost. Who am I? What do I really need to be doing? Can I call my own shots? Is this all there is?

    But I kept going and found my stride and power and strength. Life is a giant adventure. We do not know why we are here. The key is to leave a mark that you would be proud to be associated with. Your gift may be to lift folks out of their loneliness and know that they are loved and important.

    How beautiful is that?

    Giulietta

  4. Hey, i just wanted to say huge thank you . You inspired me, you make me believe that every people on this planet could change the world . You did it, you’re amazing !
    THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
    .

  5. Hannah, Once again I am speechless at how one day on the train could turn into a worldwide movement of love, hope, empathy, caring and total awesomeness! You are an inspriation to me and all 12,000 writers in your circle. YOU ARE THE DIFFERENCE in a world that is sometimes cruel and unforgiving. YOU ARE THE DIFFERENCE and have made such a difference and are leaving footprints, hope and love all over the world. Kudos to you and all that you are and will become.

  6. A photographer friend of mine shared this with me today. It would seem to me that this video found me in much the same way as one of your letters might have. Just listening to you talk about why you write them spoke to me, touched me. I have been inspired by your example to reach out and touch the lives of those around me. Thank you for showing me a way to spread the message of love to those who need it most and just might not know it yet.

  7. hannah, hope i capture you in a way that makes you again see how beautiful you and your heart are. ❤ to you

    (traveling so having trouble logging in to post properly)

  8. Your words reach in and pull out what is deep inside me… Your words are water for my heart to blossom. Your words embrace what is ment to be.

    Thank you for being you !!!!
    I appreciate you for everything you are !!!!

  9. You are an inspiration to me. I’ve been having a lot of bad days recently, but out of them have come some real heartfelt love letters to others. I feel like I’m making good out of a bad situation. I’m in tears writing this, because life has made me feel like I’m drowning, but I have some paper and envelopes sitting beside this laptop and I plan on making someone’s day just a little bit brighter. You have no idea what a truly brilliant person you are.

  10. Picasso said, “Some painters transform the sun into a yellow spot;others transform a yellow spot into the sun.” Just keep creating the sunshine. What you are doing is so bright and shining and warm, that your moments of despair are undoubtedly sunspots. In my world, I realize every love letter I write to someone else,is also a love letter to myself. Keep the good stuff coming….

  11. This video is awesome. My favorite part? Watching you write a letter. Knowing those hands wrote me a letter about a year and a half ago when I was getting divorced and needed to know some strength, truth, and dignity. I loved seeing the hands that wrote the letter I got – a letter I keep pinned to my little corkboard to this day. Thank you.

  12. Hello, Hannah! I believe it is so, so, so important for us as writers and artists to say out loud that sometimes we simply feel sad, or bad, or lonely, or confused (or all!). We need that kind of honesty in the world. So thank you!

  13. Amazing video Hannah. I came across you when a friend found one love letter and shared it on fb. I then shared his story and checked out your site. I was so inspired that I wrote one letter from more love letters request list although my husband said I was past the march due date. Ah well I decided to send it to March bundles anyway. Bless you and your work. Sending much love and bliss your way.

  14. Gah!! Love this, LOVE you!!! Thank you SO much for sharing your story with our audience! I know every person in that room was touched by you, and I put myself at the top of that list! xo M:)

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